I shouldnt have look at the wedding album belong to that friend of yours. It makes me reminisce the feelings I have felt for you. Few weeks ago, I have convinced myself that feelings are nothing but temporary and unreal. It was not love, was it lust then? I do not know. For me, It’s just a plain admiration of a man who seems to have everything in life. Name, education, good looks and a tinge of leadership and adventurous element that enough to spark the fascination that I have felt for these past few months.
I have pray for you, consistently. And I think my prayers has been answered. It has always been my fear to fall in love with someone who isn’t mine. And I do think Allah has given me a hint that you are not mine. Not now, tomorrow and always. Reality is hard to face. Even how many times I’ve talk to the moon, it wouldnt get me to you. I know the best man will come at the best time and for the best reasons.
Thanks for the feelings that make me over the moon sometimes. You makes me want to improve myself, to change myself to that girl I longed to be. To be as even as you. To be like you!
Innallaha 'Alimun Bizzatissudur. Only Allah and I know (perhaps those who know how madly I feel for this guy) that girl is NOT me. Maybe who know, if someday we met, if we’re meant to be, you’ll fall for a girl who I truly am.
It hard to let you go
but I have too...
If I let you stay, you'll hurt me.
I will hurt myself.
Yours Truly,
SSC
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