Pies in my skies.

Salam.

As happy as I might look, deep down insecurities conquered! The tough gets going... Everyday. There so many to know. to read. to discover. yet, laziness still kicks in. haih

 

kan?? Semangat lah!! Baru minggu pertama kot... : D

"There comes a time when every man has to make a choice. Whether it’s a professional choice…Or whether it’s a personal choice. In the end, it’s about integrity. And it’s about chasing after what you really want.”

BUDUKANG!

IS THIS THE REAL LIFE???

My hand phone broke down again. And I've been dealing with this since January! I'm tired of stressing over this matter. That adrenocorticosteroid secreted doesn't worth at all! Seriously, so many things happened that demand for my money. I dont have money!! No more of cash flowing for fixing something. I seriously don't have money now. Please, No more taking cash out of me Dear God. I've been spending almost RM15++ just to repair broken stuffs. Let's recap;

1. 1st time Charger Lappy conked out = Rm110

2. Cracked screen Laptop = RM1000

3. 2nd time charger lappy peter out = Rm 50 (pirate one)

2. 1st time hand phone broke down = Rm70

3. Unoriginal charger = rm10

4. HP still got problem, change battery = rm65

5. Cannot accept pirate charger, bought ori one = RM45.

6. HP still got problem, sent to mobile station = Rm85

P/S: All the transportation cost lagi.. Makan di KFC lagi setiap kali pergi KBMall hantar dorang.. Irrelevant shopping lagi...

So, you see,, my laptop and hadphone betul2 mau tarik nyawa saya oo.. Seriously, you guys are such a gold digger!! x puas lagi kah?? Ko mau sy kurus sebab tiada duit makan mahu repair kamu jak??? >,<

Tapi kenapa tidak kurus2 juga ni? sebab duit belum habis kikis kan. Taik o kamu dua. Bikin sakit jiwa saya. 

kau handphone, saya patut jual ko ni. Ni hujung minggu saya replace ko sama someone else. Baru kau tahu! Nasib lah ko tu handphone pertama yang saya beli guna duit saya sendiri. Sebab ko juga lah, ni hari saya ponteng FMD talk. sebab ko jugak lah saya pigi makan KFC chicken rice combo. Ko tengok!! Betapa banyak kerugian yang kau cetuskan. Saya buang duit sama kumpul lemak lagi. Saya betul2 harap tu Cina tidak charge saya duit lagi. Saya harap ini lah kali terakhir ko kena warded di mobile station tu. Malu sudah saya balik2 pigi sana hantar ko jak. Mesti dalam hati dia suruh saya jual ko jak. Kalau dikira, harga ko ni mau sampai 2K sudah ni. Dengan tu harga, saya boleh beli blckberry ka, iphone ka.. Ko pun laptop sama. Boleh beli VAIO sudah saya. Macbook secondhand pun kali boleh. Ceit o kamurang. Kasi putus nyawa saya. *sigh 

Mulai esok saya puasa lah ni, Jimat duit, kasi hapus dosa. (kali banyak dosa saya ni, Tuhan suruh saya bersedekah sama tu tauke Cina di KBMall.) 

P.S: Saya taip dalam slang sabah ni. Kamurang faham2 jak lah k.

ini post emosi. *beware*

Baru tadi selesai Midterm Virology dan Mandarin Listening test. Rasa macam separuh beban dunia lucut dari bahuku. Megapa aku menulis sebegini? Apa ingin jadi warga indon ya kamu Lot?

You know what's accumulate in this fat body??

ANGER.. and HATRED..

Maybe because of all these hormones playing inside me. Or maybe because there are a lot of things that makes me angry and come into one place. Just Maybe.

I just want to come clean.

Thingsthatmakesmeangryiswheni'dbeenaccusedforsomethingi'mnot.Itdoesn'tmakesenseatall.Bognoklah.namaajeterpelajartapitakgunaotak.Pandai2jetcoporangyangbukan2.Akutakdekaitanlangsungdenganbendatu.I'maliberaldude.Akucumakenalorangyangkaufikirdalangsemuainitapisebenarnyadiatidak!Akukenaldia.Mungkin.Tapiakusangkabaik.Akurasadiabukanjenisbegitu.Mungkinagaktaksubdenganperjuangan.Mungkinmasadiakecildiainginjadipahlawan.Tapitidakkesampaian.Akubenciorangyangbuatakumarah.Kadangkadangakutahandenganperangaikau.Tapikadangkadangakutakbolehterima.Nasibakumasihbolehsabar.Son'tspeakpreachorevenmentionaboutjustanythingcozyouannoyedme.Sayaakuikauokawanyangbaik.infactsangatbaiktapipleasetolonghormatkesejahteraankitabersama.Memasangmuzikdanmenyanyisesukahatiketikaoranglainsedangmenelaah.Sangatannoyingdisitutapiakusudahbiasamenerimakawankuseadanyadanakumintajasabaikkausupayajagalahsesejahteraankitabersama.Akupunbanyakkekurangananditrymybesttonotannoypeople.Harapkaubagikerjasama.Selainitu,akujugageramyangakunipunsamamacamtipikalperempuan.Akuingatakukuat,takmudahterpedayatapirupanyaakutidak.Nasibbaikakucepatsedardankuatkanhatiini.Akucumaseorangmanusiaberhatiperempuan.Duaharilepassaathormoneakumemangklimaksdah.Kesabaraninidiujilagidenganperistiwayangagakbolehdikawalpadamulanyabutthewayyouguysactmakesmedamnpissed!Bencinyalelaki!Dasarlelaki!Benci!benci!Benci!Lebihmenggeramkanbilakaufikirkawanlelakiyangkaupercayabolehtolongambilmudah!Yamemangkamutolong.Tapiakubolehrasakorangtakikhlaslangsung.Korangambilmudah!Korangmacamtakkisah!Korangtakbersungguh!Itumaruahkami.Cubalahempatisedikit.Geram.geramyangteramat.AnggapkamibuatceritaTidaksesekali.Cubalahempatisedikit.Itumelibatkanmaruah.Cakapbaikbaiktanyasoalanyangsengalpula.Bencilelakiyangmacamtu.Satupuntakbolehdiharap.Takbolehdijadikansayapuntukberlindung.Ohlelaki,Silasedarbahawasalahsatufunsikamudiduniaadalahuntukmelindungikaumlemah.Kadangkadangakupenatjadiwanitakuat,independent.Butihaveto.Selagidiriinibolehberdikariakucuba.Tapisudahlumrahperempuanuntukdilindungi.Jarangadalelakiyangbetulbetulkitapercayai,yangdapatmelindungikitadanmempertahankankitaespeciallymaruahkita.Kesahalahkamimembuatbisingsemasamajlisharijadiitusangatkecildibandingdenganapayangsibanjinganitubuat.DanIdontthinkkamiadabuatkesalahan.Maafakumemangego.Bilamanaakumarah,janganingatakusenanglupa.Imaylaughandignorebutseldomforgot.Buatmasakiniemosibenarbenarterganggu.Happyfacedoesn'tmeanhappyheart.

Sayarindukawanbaiksayaesteranzavictorjunior. *sigh*

I'd been accused for something I'm NOT.

Homeostasis terganggu!!!

Andai perjuangan ini mudah,

pasti ramai menyertainya,

Andai perjuangan ini menjanjikan kesenangan, 

Pasti ramai yang tertarik padanya,

Tapi hakikat perjuangan bukan begitu,

Turun naiknya, sakit pedihnya,

Umpama kemanisan yang tak terhingga,

Andai Rebah, Bangkitlah semula,

Andai Terluka, Ingatlah Janji-Nya.

Motivasi pada diri sendiri dan kepada yang memerlukan. Sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah tu sangatlah dekat. Tapi aku je yang lalai, alpa.. Memang jahil sungguh. -.-

Kalau dulu, letak je kepala ni atas bantal, confirm I'll fall into deep sleep 2 minutes later.

But lately, jangan harap! Sejam pun tak confirm akan tidur. Begitu teruknya kepala otak aku sekarang.

Kesannya, tidur tak cukup, dalam kuliah tak concentrate, affect kesihatan sendiri. 

Sekarang ni, rohani, mentally, physically aku tercabar. I'll get annoyed or irritated easily.

So, please jangan buat perkara yang korang rasa bila orang buat kat korang akan annoyed or irritated kat aku. Baca betul2 ye statement ni. Sebab tak masuk kat dalam kepala otak aku sekarang.

Banyak lagi things that clutters in my head. Haih, I let things get into myself again. -,-

I'm missing you...

Feels like we are growing apart. 

Please don't.

You're the only thing that's right.

P/S: tolong angin,khabarkan padanya.

Down Down Down

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now..

Bacterio oh Bacterio.. It's my 2nd attempt and I still flunk at it. huh. He said, if you done bad this time maybe you're not really fit into this professional thingy. =.=

He should say this long time ago so that i have that 'drive' to study.

It's proven that you cannot study when you're at home. too many distraction. Haish.

I wish I could done better. Now, I'm waiting like 10.0 points in my marks. Congrates lot!

p/s: macamana mahu instill suka kepada bacteriology?? meeeeeencinyeeee.. hate myself right now!

I have enough things to think.

Please don't add some more.

T.T

Blood's thicker than water, and when one's in trouble

Best to seek out a relative's open arms.

~Author Unknown

To us, family means putting your arms around each other and being there.  

~Barbara Bush

after all, that's what a family suppose to do right. What's yours is mine, what's mine is yours. Something terrible happen and what u care is that thing???!!! WTH!!! are you that selfish???!!!

>.<

P/s: i really really wanna blog about orientation week but this really really piss me off!!!

cacing kepanasan sungguh aku.. huuu~

Ya.
Aku serupa cacing kepanasan di sini.
Jasadku di Ulu Lepar.
Minda dan hatiku di sana.
Banyak kerja masih terbengkalai.
Penyesalan menyelebungi diri.
Aku patut usaha lebih lagi.
Amanah ni lot.
Jangan main-main.
Ini tanggungjawab kau.
Jangan lupa!
=.=
Aku hilang arah.
Jangan disebabkan anasir luar,
kau jatuh melutut.
TIDAK!!!!
huhuu~
Teman-teman seperjuanganku sekalian.
Tolong daku.
sambut tanganku.
Aku lemah sekarang.
Hilang arah.
Hilang fokus.
Fokus lot! FOKUS!!


P/S: I Hate myself when i'm weak.
       Mana perginya Lot semangat itu?
       Mana perginya Lot yang 'Think +ve' itu?
       DIMANAKAH???

dear difficult people.

Dear difficult people,

Why do you have to make people's life difficult?

Why do you need to make situation become worse?

Why can't you just go with the flow.

Like the way we agree to do.

Even if you're not agree before,

Why don't you said it on the first place.

In my face, not behind my back.

Why do you have to be so difficult?

When people trying to ask you to listen,

You said, "Who Cares?''

Don't give me that answer.

What sort of selfish, unthoughtful answer is that.

Everybody cares!

At least, the one that put their ass off participating this thingy.

What i want is that, cooperation.

From all of you.

That would make my life less difficult.

Maybe you might think why do i have to do that for you.

Its not For ME, Its For US.

Can you do that for us?

Everyone is battling some kind of battle, so i need to be kinder than necessary.

If you got problems, make me undertand your problems. 

Make me understand.

So I won't be such a difficult people for you.

But please,

Put some efforts too.

Don't make me walk alone.

I need you guys.

hateeverything!

Itsbeenalongandtiringday. Ifeelsotiredandfrustratedofmyself. Ijustfeellikedoingnothing. Plus,homesickisintheairnow. Peoplearebusygoinghomewhilemestuckhereinulustatewhichipresumeasparisandrome. iwannagohomesobadly. Misswawa,mummyanddaddysomuch. Ifidontthinkrasionallyrightnow, imightjustcatvhthatbustoklormelaka. reallyreallyneedmyfamily. tiredoflivinghere. tiredofthepeople. theenvironment. theeverything. canijustgohome. i'msickofthisplace. Ohgosh,thismoodswingstartedtobecomeworsen. stupidmoodswinf,stupidplace,stupidpeople,stupideverythingandofcoursestupidmefornotstudyhardenoughfortheoraltest. damnyousitishakinnachu.

MPP madness has ended... GILA KUAsA???

Alhamdulillah. Segala puji bagi Tuhan pencipta segala alam.
MPP madness has officially over. Hari ini, Penamaan Calon at 11am-2pm only.
Segala yang masuk  10.59am-2.01pm tidak akan dilayan.
Semua dokumen selamat dihantar. Ribuan terima kasih pada pencadang dan penyokong saya, Sarah dan Nana. Juga tidak ketinggalan wakil-wakil calon, Chia, Shirah,Zatty, dan intan, not to forget Izan yang telah membenarkan tapi lupa minta no IC.  Also to En Azwan atas semua tunjuk ajar, Cik Azlina kerana sudi jadi saksi last minit.. hehe.. juga tidak ketinggalan kepada Prof Dr Othman Mansur kerana tandatangan bagi pihak dekan yang berkursus sehingga 4hb Februari ini. Last but not least, kepada Luqman Nordin, another representative from vet faculty. Kepada kawan-kawan yang bagi support, I couldn't thank you more.


One chapter has ended, but the story continues into more...
Being selected as MPP Vet faculty doesnt affect me sebanyak mana pun.
Sebelum ini, tidak terfikir pun mahu jadi MPP. I'm also like the others.
I think MPP is lousy, kuli HEP, Manifesto jak lebih tapi satu habuk pun tarak..
Me too used to think like that. Even now, I think the world of it is dirty.
( Malas nak elaborate more about this. only those who are close to me know what actually happened)
But some group of people encourage me to do this kind of thingy.
They ask me to join. I said NO. But then they said.
 " Ala~ Kan tahu diri tu ada bakat nak suarakan pendapat.
Kenapa tak mahu join? Kenapa mahu berdiam diri? kenapa mahu biar saja?"
Ya kan. kenapa ah?? kenapa? At that moment i realise selama ni saya balik2 kutuk MPP (terutama yang matrix punya), tapi tidak pula kutuk diri sendiri yang tahu complain saja. Kan hak sendiri juga untuk bersuara, kenapa mahu tunggu orang lain yang buatkan padahal ending2 kitra kutuk dia sebab tidak jalankan tugas.
Hmmm.. terasa jijik dengan diri sendiri. Semua tahu Complain tapi to do something, to take action, nobody volunteer to do that. Ada orang cakap jadi MPP jadi Kuli HEP. But I'm not going to be that. NOT EVER!
That's why saya sudah elakkan dari terhutang budi dengan mereka mereka di sana.
I HAtE DIRTY POLITICS! In m opinion, being MPP is likebeing slave to the student. Jadi HAMBA KEPADA STUDENT-STUDENT VET. Saya sibukkan diri kerana  kebajikan mereka. dengan masalah mereka. dengan kemahuan mereka. Jadi jangan lah jadi ignorant ok!  I DIDN'T MIND BEING THE SO CALLED SLAVE. You know why? Because I CARE! I CARE ABOUT OUT FAMILY. OUR VETERINARY FAMILY. So, lepas ni kalau ada apa-apa masalah, just headed to me. I'll Voice out your voice to the authorities. Let they heard us! A Faculty is a Faculty even how small it is!



Whatever your says, your thoughts. Thanks but No thanks. I dont really bother about it.
Me being Gila Kuasa is nonsense! For YDP VETSA, cuba kamu renung-renungkan kembali dulu.
Ada saya tawar diri jadi YDP? Ada ka? Tidak kan. Kamu pilih saya! Tanpa bertanding dengan siapa-siapa. Timbalan YDP yang bertanding kan? Kan? Sedihnya bila kena cakap macam tu.. kena fikir gila kuasa.
And now, I'm being one of the MPP, you guys want me to lepaskan VETSA. Saya boleh lepaskan but I can't! Kalau saya tahu macam ini, Saya tidak mahu bertanding MPP!! VETSA is everything to me.
Everything! Its my baby and to all of you too. Tiada kita, Tiada VETSA. Dengan adanya VETSA, we feel belonged. Its our everything. Kan?


I can't let go of VETSA. Tidak boleh tunggu Mesyuarat Agong Tahun 2 ka? WHy so cruel to me. Don't make me choose. Coz I'll choose VETSA but its too late for me to left out MPP. Rasa diri disabotaj. Rasa Bodoh. Rasa Hina sangat-sangat.

Sorry. I am really not myself right now. Sedihnya. Tapi Saya terpaksa let out jugak.

*Kenangan Terindah*

Conclusion, SAYA TIDAK MAHU LEPASKAN VETSA!

Tunggu la Mesyuarat Agong untuk lantik majilis tertinggi yang baru.

Sekian.

Depressed :((

Saya sangat depressed malam ni.
Rasa macam mahu nangis ja.
Rasa empty. Rasa macam loser.
Bodoh kan..Haish..
nda suka! Benci!
I really really want to cry right now.
I'm fed up. Tired.
I really miss my family
Right now. Right here.
X'mas/new year ni mahu turun Damansara/Cheras at my sis/bro place.
Tapi nda boleh. Sebab tiada cuti.
X'mas jatuh hari jumaat. Means tiada cuti hari ahadnya.
New year pun sama jugak.
Kan bagus kalau jatuh pada hari sabtu.
At least berbaloi juga turun KL.
.
.
.
.
:((

Apa bah masalah sy ni?? I really100x feels empty.
Padahal byk tul org sekeliling sy ni..
Gain praises but not companion.
I thought I have companion, but truly, they r not.
I want my real friends. seriously. but they are far away from me.
Need my Montoku. Need my Wawa.
Macam sy ada emotional disorder oo.
Or maybe it just PMS.
Benci!
Macam baru jak tadi saya suka suki. Ketawa riang ria.
Sekarang, nah.. padan muka ko.
There's a saying..
Jangan terlampau happy, nanti mesti sedih.
Jadi macamanalah??

Dear Mood, Why do you swing??

Today I have mood disorder.
hahaha.
It is a classic example of bipolar disorder.
Emotion and Motivation.
It is unique criteria that is controlled by our nervour system (ini yang kami belajar hari ni. hehe)
But, Our physiology lecturer, Prof Dr Imad doesn't emphasis so much regarding this matter.
Coz he thinks that animal doesn't need so much of these.
But i don't think so. Human and Animals are quite the same.
Only human got 'akal'.
You know why animal doesn't have 'akal'?
First, because God made them so.
Second, because of their cerebrum spaces are small.
Unlike human, our capacity is bigger yet we only use 10% of it. (Shame on u!!!)
Plus, animal needs motivation and their emotions taken care of.
We need to give them trats to uplift their motivation so that they can perfom well in races, pageant and so on.
.
.
.
Back to my mood sidorder..
I find today really hard to concentrate.
Damn sleepy in class. maybe for the sake of imbalance hormone and of course PMS!!!
Oh, I hate you so much PMS.
I got annoyed easily.
I do hate myself right now.
Suddenly, i felt like I am a bully. (memang pun. cuma hari ni saya rasa saya jahat sgt, hahaha)
I think that i don't think for others.
For e.g, at physiology lab this afternoon,
we learn how to check BP manually and automatically.
Of course the automatic one is easy. Just press the button.
Only one device are present for each manual and automatic and it is for 39 students.
Our lab is really really lack of facilities.
I am soo selfish that i want to be the first one to learn and use it.
of course my friends become my patience.
But they are so many people like me in my class.
Yg-x-mau-ketinggalan-semua-n-mau-tahu-semua-lepastu-x-mau-lepas-tu-barang-yg-ingat-dia-tu-pandai-la-semua-lepastu-bila-org-mau-guna-tidak-mau-bagi.
Like that kind of people.
Bencinya. cuma fikir tentang kepentingan sendiri saja.
Like me. I think so.
How moody I am to admit I'm a bad person.
I should be more in control next time.
Be considerate. Be more lovable.
I hate me right now. Really, Seriously.
.
.
.
I really miss having real friends to talk to.
I miss my besties. Ester n yong.
Saya x puas spend time sama mereka.
I miss them. but i don't need them.
Or maybe i need ester. He's my Montoku and Yong is my ciggarette.
Hehe.. Whenever I have problems, I really need my montoku more.
.
.
.
Its really late. and i'm not done with Biochem yet.
Sem 2 is indeed tougher than Sem 1.
NO MORE HONEYMOON.
.
.
.
Oh my darling honeybee.. stuck where he WANTS to be..
Left me in stuck here. ALONE.
I got new friends, the butterfiles and ants.
They thought me many thing.
But I miss my moments with the BEEs.
I want to be back to my colonies.
When will i be??
Lalalalalalalalalalalala

P/s: Kenapa mahu buat sesuatu yang buat kita runsing, membebankan dan tidak mengembirakan langsung.
       Saya benci POLITIK. unfortunately, Its everywhere. Even in a small club or in the toilet.
       Kenapa wujud POLITIK? supaya dihormat? Disanjung? Dikenali?
       Saya suka memimpin.  Tapi saya seorang yang bebas.
       Celaka POLITIK.
      
      

Anat Anat

helo.
tomorrow's anatomy exam.
I still got many to study..
but i don't feel like want to study at all.
if u ask me any single Q about the goat's part,
i will not answer it correctly,
or maybe i answer it but not all.
Today is sure not my lucky day, FB also agree.
I checked my lucky-meter, i got only 28%.
How unlucky is that?
Not a reproductive day indeed.
Wake up at 11. FBing. Study a while. Can't concentrate. Listen to some music.FBing. Dinner. FBing. Study.Blogging. Haiya...
Stupid. Stupid.
Eventhough i'm tall, i feel short right now. In everyway.
I hate this feeling.
But it keeps me humble.
Its a good thing actually.
I just need to talk to someone.
I talk to my BFF just now, still not feeling good about myself.
Actually, i didn't tell him about how i feel sooo miserable, we just talk about something else.
I don't talk anything sad. i talk happy thing so that i can feel happy a lil bit.
How come i don't feel happy at all.
I want to watch sad movie. so that I can cry.
but, exam tommorow won't allow me to do such thing.
I want to be happy.
happy.
happy.
someone. help me.

PMS.. please..please..

Oh my...
PMS.. huhu..
I Hate PMS coz when it came, i am not myself.
I really really felt the mood swing right now.
Added with the exam tense, it is sooo unbearable.
I get annoyed easily. by everyone. including my besties here.
Oh God.
I get annoyed.
Especially girls.
Huh..
I even get annoyed by my roomie everytime she speaks about boys.
Boys in her class, boys that she knows.
I kept babling in my heart
" Doesn't she have bf ody?? Mahu jugak closed with other guys.. duh.."
Coz they way she talks about the guy as if she like him.. Hmm..
I dunno.. Bla.. Bla.. Bla..
Let them be.. Popular among guys kunun.. Fucking Sh*t la!!!
Dont tell me.. why u guys owez tell me??
I don't care about the guys in your life.
So geram.. I also get annoyed by one of my gf..
I dunno.. As if i'm her rivalry or what.
Why do people always see me as their competition?
I don't ask for higher marks, or even people to like me.
They just did, ok?
I am NOT ok. I just being myself!!!
So shut ur fucking mouth!! and i hate it when u make face with me and ignore me!!!
Palui.. Bangang.. Sial...
U make me write dirty words in my blog!!!
U biatch!! SHIT!! I hate you right now.
Jangan harap saya mahu jumpa ko these two days..
Kalau boleh this exam week, saya x mahu jumpa ko.
huhu..
honestly, i miss the old 'us'.
i hope after exams and probably after holidays ni, we back to normal again.
maybe because of all the tense right now.
or maybe because i'm jealous with you kowt.
I dunno.. seems all the guys are into you. Not me.
Sound pathetic right?
Maybe you are the miss-everybody-like. Not me anymore.
When I post something in my FB, fews will comments.
Sometimes more than 10, more than 20s. sometimes barely 10.
If you post something, then theywill be 1+ comments.
So many people care about you.
Why not so many people care about me?
Am I not a fun person to talk with??

One of my friends even said " if SSC is a drinks, what would she be?"
She answered "FRUITALE"
I ask "why?"
She replied " coz she's FUN and YUMMY"

Greatest compliment ever!! 
Haha.. 
Now, i'm not that angry anymore.. Ngeee~


MOTIVATION QUOTES FOR ME.......

i dont understand

I really dont understand.

I got crush on this senior that i think really2 cute.

But i got this one gf.. she knows i really2 minat this senior.

She add him on FB and layan2 him..

Gosh,, sakit hati pun ada juga ooo..

this senior ah,, mau jugak melayan..

Saya ni pun pugut..

siapa la saya ni mau jeles2..

Ingat la diri tu lot.

Kau tu minat dari jauh ja..

Bukan ada relationship pun.

Tapi ka, tu senir ada girlfriend sudah oo.

Girlfriend dia tidak jeles ka tu ah..

ni senior melayan2 d FB..

Bhe~ nasib la just ordinary crush.

Shit tul oo..

P/S: i got crush on my senior but i still like the person i'm thinking every moments of my everyday soo much.

       

jelousy?

*JEALOUS*

See that word?
I'm soooo jealous right now.
of what?
of everything!


1. I'm jealous to people who have a chance to study abroad. While, I, me, Ms Ina chu stucked here!  It always been my deam to study abroad. Tapi apakan daya, nak dapat tajaan, result setakat moderate je.. Bantuan PAMA,  no way!! I've  burdened my PAMA way too much already. let's them have a peaceful and happy retirement life. No need to worries about da money thingy.


2. I'm jealous of people who r in lurve~ huhu.. you know what my life is missing?? Its not LOVE. coz i got love by my family and friends. What i'm missing is LOVER.. haha.. I always been jealous in elkie and juvita punya relationship. These two people are my friends back in matrix. They are such a sweet couple. never show their smoochie2 in front of people. they act cool. They act like friends. Bestfriend. I'm so envy of their relationship. Hseems cool but deep inside soo caring towards ju..huhu.. Ju also act like sempoi n bersahaja je.,. But in the bersahaja, there's manja2..hahaa.. cute couple. Banyak2 couple kat dunia ni, i jealous kat budak 2 orang ni..hehe..


In conclusion (macam nak wat essay english), I'm so jealous to people who are studying abroad and to the lovers out there,.. huhu.. I also want these two things right now! Nak rasa jugak how it feels living in foreign countries. Try new adventure and going to places that are soo different than malaysia.
I also want to be loved and to be in love. Lumrah manusia.


I'm certainly not myself tonight. PMS agaknya.


Ina Chu's thought; betulkah sekarang break up seasons?? baru jak p bilik one of my girlfriends and she said she's having some argument with her bf. her bf is soo kurang ajar. calling your GF like "sepak ko karang" or "ko nie lampik la" or " p mampus la". Is it appropriate? u're acting like a jerk la dude. Bodoh kan??? kalau la dia sayang kat GF dia, dia xkan panggil GF dia mcm ni.. huhu.. If this guy clash with my girlfriend, he's the one who's going to lose. Its ok, a guy like him doesnt deserve my friend. She deserve more than him. At least a descent guy!