One Step Closer.

Heart beat fast

Colors and promises

How to be brave

How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?

But watching you stand alone

All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you

Darling don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stand still, beauty in all she is

I will be brave

I will not let anything take away what's in front of me

Every breath, Every hour has come to this

One step closer

All Along I believed I would found you

Time has brought your heart to me

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer

One step closer

It's a song sung by Christina Perri. It's a hit now. It's also one of the OST of Breaking dawn. and somehow, It's also the lyrics of my heart. I can't stop listening to it. Every word. Every meaning. I had done some stupid things in this beginning December. How can I do that? I'd thought of it. But never had the courage to do so. But, this itchy fingers of mine just doesn't want to back off when my head says don't. Little did I realize, I had pressed that 'send' button. What the heck am I doing???? Can you call that bravery? That's just total idiot. I felt like committing suicide. And even worse now as that birthday wish haven't been replied back. Devastated. Total Humiliation. Scourge of my life. 

Is that mean that I should give up? I should give up long before but this heart of mine just don't know how to. Maybe because the fact that I just don't accept NO for an answer in things that I want. If I really want it, not matter how hard it is, I'll go after it. So, in this case, I'm not going to give up. Despite the ignored birthday wish, I still gonna wish you for another birthday, another new year, Ramadan, Eid. You name it! Even Merdeka if it'll makes you to reply me back. (ok. I might sound like a total maniac in this paragraph :P)\

But everything I do, I hope it will take me one step closer to you.

Ok Lot. Enough of grieving days. That is so not you! Head up, Chin up! Live live and love it. Don't forget to give the world your smile :)

P/S I love you : For you, I'd just be there. Give me a smile and I'll give you my whole. Be there for me and I'll be there for you- Shoonari